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haaaaa so my ms P came in early. Supposed to get it on 2.4.16, it came today instead. So no luck at TTC right after HSG :( This month, when ms P came, the emotion was slightly better for both me and dear hubby. We took it calmly and just move on. This just means that we will proceed with our next plan... IUI. I will start taking chlomide on cycle day 2 (2 tablets per day) for 5 days and will be going for ultrasound on day 12 or 13. I am a bit worried because I have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) and SADLY it is coming back again aggressively for the past 2 weeks means I have to be on medication again.. I am on Actemra (infusion when necessary, usually done every 8 weeks). It has been more than 12 weeks without any medication and I was happy for awhile that I could conceive without having to worry of any slightest chance on any side effect to the baby. TTC plan did not work for us... With RA, planning is everything, but when it comes to TTC, you cannot really...

h.e.l.l.o  Hubby's cousin is getting married this Saturday. For most of the malay weddings, this would mean a whole day kinda event for the whole fam as we need to help out with the last minute preparations and help get everything in place. In fact, this Friday after work, hubby's fam and the rest of the crew are coming from Seremban staying at a home stay in Sungai Buloh where the wedding will be held. Morning time for the akad nikah and come sanding in the afternoon.  On top of that I have signed up the both of us for hiking at Broga Hill on Sunday morning. This was few weeks ago. I thought it would be a good idea to keep us busy and focus on other things. When I reminded him over the hiking plans, he was what this sunday?!?  So i said "Yeah, I told you. We are going to see the sunrise. Need to be there by 5am. Meaning we need to wake up at 4am" H: No, you did not mention that we had to wake up that early. I need my sleep ya daa yaa da Me: Yeah, but you said...

h.e.l.l.o So yesterday I was busy googling places to proceed with IUI but before we decide on any hospital, was thinking of maybe we can save a few hundreds by going elsewhere other than Ramsay Sime Darby Medical Centre (RSDMC), Subang Jaya. HSG procedure had just cost us RM717 when I know it could have been cheaper in LPPKN or Tawakal Hospital to name a few. I find RSDMC a bit easier to arrange for  appointments and they treat you well. Okay I know I am being bias but I have valid reasons which I shall tell about it later...  All and all I know the cheapest would be doing it with Gov hospitals but because I wanted the security of having to do it in a more hassle free environment, not that I am saying bad things about Gov hospitals but it is going to be quite a  process to have to go through and you need to plan for your leave and medical leave etc, so in my head I wanted to do it somewhere that would be able to provide me a little extra guidance and comfort t...

h.e.l.l.o On Monday 14.03.2016, Hubby and I went for HSG test at Ramsay Sime Darby Medical Centre. Alhamdulillah, the result came back positive :) We came in at about 8.45 am, they called me in at about 9.15am, procedures started at 9.30am and ended by 10am. The whole process of inserting and injecting only lasted for 2-3 minutes but the whole process of waiting for them to set up the whole area, listening to some explanation given by the nurse, waiting for the doctor to arrive and etc etc were the part that brought some gelabah feeling because in my head I just wanted it to be over like now now. Quick! But don't worry too much. Focus on the positive and just remember to breathe, zikir,breathe, zikir... I read like gazillion blogs and medical websites to learn about the procedures and how it would feel, but trust me, it was really easy breezy. Sure it was a bit uncomfortable but just relax follow the procedure and it will be over before you know it. And it was true it did ...

H.e.l.l.o So I decided to start a blog. My very own wall use to express my feelings and update on the things that I have in mind. What better way then to start my own blog.  A little introduction about me. I am 30 years old. I am married. I really really really want to start a family with Mr Hubby but boy was I not in the know that it was not going to be that easy making one! (which is probably be the main reason why this blog exist in the first place!) I have been feeling frustrated time and time again on the failure of not being able to conceive one. Things are not easy on Mr Hubby too as he really really really wants one too.. I tell myself there is still hope but every now and then you feel what could possibly be wrong feeling with me (Mr Hubby did his test, his result came out wonderful,yes he has awesome swimmers on board). Yes, I should not be blaming myself for all of this. The possibility would be endless. But you cannot help it. We humans are weak. It is a mo...